Uncomfortable

This is me now - a new me which consists of a lot of the old me. A lot has happened in the last few months (it has felt like many more). I'm not going to get into why new me has happened, but it did; I couldn't be more excited to see what's going to come of it.

I wrote an email to an "old friend" recently which cleared my consciousness yet also made it all that much more blurred. I get that that doesn't make sense, but it does to me. Moral of the story is that I'm on a journey for myself and only myself. I have always been comfortable in life. Comfortable sounds good, and it  is most likely satisfying, but it also comes about because it's what we know and are used to. How many people are comfortable yet have experienced the other side to determine what actually makes them happy instead of comfortable? That's my spot. As I just mentioned, I've always been comfortable with life and myself, but I'm trying to seek the other side and find what *really* makes me happy and who I actually am. Basically, I want to be uncomfortable and experience the opposite journey to make me realize what actually matters on the other side.

I have spent 29 (soon to be 30..!!!) years of my life worrying about settling. This is probably the prime reason I'm in the spot I am in now - oh well. How often do we settle for what we think is best or what is expected of us? What do we really know what makes us feel the best we can possibly feel? Am I on an endless chase for the 'end of the rainbow', as they say (who the fuck is they anyway)? Is there even an end, and when do we decide what is close enough to that end? These are all questions there will never be an answer to yet I'm trying to come as close as I can. I'm trying to be uncomfortable, and I currently am. I guess what I am saying is that I am on a mission to find out what truly matters to me, what truly makes me happy, what challenges me, what I like, what I don't like, and everything else in between. 

To that, there is no end game. That's the problem - is it really a problem? When do we come to a point where we have discovered everything we can and have figured out everything about ourselves to make a decision when to be happy with ourselves and with someone else that also makes us feel that way? Everyone says "you know it when you feel it"...maybe I've never had that. Maybe I have had that yet I just keep being curious or being afraid of settling. Back to the goal of this journey? There is no goal. So good luck to you, and to me, I suppose. Back to square one.

I've gone no where with this post...but it's about me and not you, right? This vent is over. I hope to have many more vents to come.

No Need to Post Old Entries

After going back through my old blog, I've decided re-posting anything from there really isn't worth the time and effort. If you want to go back and re-read some, please do. I may decide to change my mind once I go through some of the ones I had in mind, but considering most need to be thoroughly edited and re-wirtten I doubt that's going to happen. On that note, enjoy your weekend, and hopefully you had a wonderful Thanksgiving!

Random Friday

  • I could not stop laughing as I watched this. This guy's Boston accent combined with the endless use of swear words is awesome.
  • I cannot decide if this iPhone app, to help with concentration, is just a cute gimmick or would actually be useful?
  • Buy something from these fine, folks. I just discovered this clothing line focused on all things Minnesota, and it's beautiful.
  • An awesome cookbook (The Food Lab) recommended by a buddy of mine. It's crazy informative and super nerdy (a lot of science behind the methods he recommends).
  • I'm going to attempt to make my first roasted turkey for Thanksgiving from a recipe in this book - we will see how this goes.
  • I just stumbled upon my old (like, really old) Wordpress blog, and it's fascinating. I actually posted some thoughtful pieces and fun commentary as opposed to this one and the endless "Random Friday".
  • I actually just read through all of my posts from that blog, and I want to re-post my favorite ones in the upcoming weeks since they still hold some weight.
  • I am also adopting the "Sports Bucket List" from the old blog.
  • iPad Pro looks fairly intriguing. I would love nothing more than a 4K 27" iMac and an iPad Pro for on-the-go.
  • Just spent a long weekend in Chicago for a wedding/mini-vacation, and I saw much more of the city this time (Wicker Park, Chinatown). I love Chicago more each time I visit.
  • I don't have much else. Enjoy your weekend.

Random Friday

Two posts in a week is kind of a big deal. I keep harping on the fact that I would like to get back in the "blogging" swing of things so here goes. As usual, some random links and thoughts for you to ponder this weekend:

  • I'm not a huge fan of slideshows on the web, but here is one from Travel & Leisure featuring America's most beautiful campuses.
  • "Inside a Hollywood Sex Party" - at first glance, this title didn't spark much interests since I'd imagine Hollywood and sex parties go hand-in-hand yet this is some crazy shit. Read it.
  • You get to pay what you want for your meal. What would you pay?
  • A solid read on NFL cheerleaders and how awful they are treated.
  • WTF happened in the Thursday Night Football game last night?! Denver is terrible, Peyton is done; KC is dominating; whoa, we have a game; okay, Peyton isn't that bad; KC still has this; wait, Peyton is still really good; OMG, Jamaal; wow good night. Just a few thoughts going through everyone's head last night. On that note, go Cowboys on Sunday vs the Eagles!
  • A behind-the-scenes look at a Hollywood prop house. (Apparently I have been reading about Hollywood recently.)
  • The latest from Rolls-Royce, the Dawn. So beautiful.
  • When is the last time you had a nice conversation with a stranger?
  • A few drink recipes from a local distillery here in Minneapolis. If you're close by, check out their awesome cocktail room! Plus they usually have an awesome food truck parked out front. Enjoy your weekend!

1-0.

I haven't posted in a while (which is always the case), so I figured I might as well put a note about how fucking awesome that Dallas Cowboys game was last night. No way in hell they should have won, but to be honest, they dominated the entire game. Turnovers will derail any team, and that certainly needs to be cleaned up but a win is a win. I love me some Tony Romo! The Dez and Gregory injuries won't help, but it's a Monday after a win; I'm happy.

Enjoy your week.

ps - I just booked flights to Dallas for the Jets game to attend my first game at Jerry World. So stoked.

Random Friday...finally

A lot of the links below are somewhat old but most should still be relevant and interesting nonetheless. So enjoy.

  • The one person who knows the NBA draft order before anyone else.
  • I love me some Dallas Cowboys so, of course, an interesting article about how Jason Garrett got hired.
  • The story behind Answers, one of the leading mobile analytics companies. Always love hearing the amount of work it takes to build a great, successful company.
  • Click on this and watch the introduction video - so sick. It's a GoPro on major steroids.
  • There wasn't a ton of coverage on the explosions in China a few days back, but these photos show how massive and devastating they were.
  • This book looks like a fascinating read; it's about a few buddies in Florida somehow becoming massive weapons and ammunition dealers.
  • Committing crimes willingly and getting away with them? Yes, as the article says, the open seas are ruthless.
  • PGA Championship this week in Wisconsin - beautiful course at Whistling Straits too. Let the fun begin as it is already a tight leaderboard. Jordan Spieth is creeping too. Sunday should be fun.
  • That's enough. No cocktail this time so stick to your usual. Enjoy.

Random Friday

  • I think JJ Watt hurt himself.
  • How does everyone like their Apple Watch? I did not pre-order one, but I am debating if I should pull the trigger now for the fitness features alone. My FitBit completely died about a month ago.
  • This is old news, but interesting nonetheless. A Seattle-based company has made its minimum wage $70,000. Yes, each employee is paid at least $70,000. I'm curious to see if this is a publicity stunt, or if it is sustainable long-term.
  • I never watched David Letterman regularly, but I made sure to watch his last episode -- it was great.
  • I am a huge Dallas Cowboys fan so maybe it's only interesting to me, but this is a good, quick read on how Jason Garrett became the head coach.
  • When people start getting into your elevator before you're fully out of it is one of my biggest pet peeves.
  • The Timberwolves are taking Towns with the #1 pick.
  • An awesome new podcast from ESPN's Cari Champion called Be Honest.
  • Everyone loves Disney, right? A fascinating article about how they tried to bring back the magic to their theme parks with MyMagic+ and how hard it was/is.
  • Enjoy Memorial Day Weekend and here are some cocktails to sip on as well.

Random Friday

Getting back to the basics here, let's kick off this Friday with my first "Random Friday" post on the new blog:

  • I'm currently reading The Unspeakable by Meghan Daum and Becoming Steve Jobs by Brent Schlender and Rick Tetzeli.
  • Did you pre-order the Apple Watch? I did not, but I can eventually seeing myself buying one once I go in and try one on. Just don't feel the need to rush into buying one which is odd since I usually drool over every new product category from Apple.
  • The first round of The Masters was insane, and it's only going to get better with the next three rounds. 
  • Speaking of The Masters, Jordan Spieth is insane. Wouldn't surprise me if he keeps this up and runs away with it, but then again, it is The Masters and that rarely happens.
  • One more comment on The Masters, if Woods plays solid today and makes the cut, it wouldn't surprise me one bit to see him go low on Saturday.
  • I have been trying a standing desk for about a month now and just cannot get on board with it. I took it down yesterday. I was not nearly as productive and always ended up moving my laptop to the coffee table and sitting on the couch. Not sure if it's a good or bad thing.
  • That's all for today. No cocktail recipe either, just have a gin & tonic. Enjoy.

Fresh Start

My blog was due for a fresh coat of paint. As a matter of fact, it was due for a fresh start. Back in the day, I used Wordpress but never owned the domain. Then I bought a domain and started experimenting with Jekyll and GitHub Pages. It was fun experimenting, but it got time consuming when I wanted to change certain aspects of the site. Also, I cannot count the number of times I came across an article and had some thoughts yet didn't share them because I would have had to open my Mac, launch TextWrangler, write the post in Markdown, commit my post then push it to GitHub. That is not a very streamlined workflow to just post a link and a few sentences especially while lying in bed reading on my iPad. I wanted to change all of this; Squarespace has everything I want, plus much more.

The only downside to switching was that I could not migrate all of my previous posts over to my new site. All posts will need to be manually moved over if I want them, and at this point, I do not think I do. I have all of them saved, but I don't see a need to archive any of them on here. Plus, I don't think anyone wants to see an archive full of "Random Fridays" and nothing else. I love doing "Random Fridays" and will continue to do so, but, finally, my entire blog is not going to consist of them. I still have some things to clean up and polish, but hopefully you enjoy the switch as much as I will.